Wednesday, November 23, 2011

32 Random Acts of Kindness

I blogged all about my day on my other blog, It's Hue I Love. Head on over and check it out to read about my awesome day :)

www.itshueilove.com

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

Monday, August 29, 2011

momo

i don't really know where to start on this post. i actually don't even want to write it. but i do. no, i don't. but i need to, so here we go…

on monday, august 15 when i blogged here about her health, we were hopeful that the medication would kick in and start to work. right before i wrote that blog, i sat down with her on the kitchen floor and tried to give her her medicine, but she refused everything i offered her. she even let a pill just sit in the back of her throat without trying to swallow it. i sat with her for a while and talked to her. i told her to tell me when enough is enough and that she needed to let me know when she was ready. i gave her a kiss, went into the living room and proceeded to write that blog. ironically, while i was blogging, or shortly after, she died. ant went into the kitchen and i asked him to check on her and he said she was gone. to say we were shocked doesn't really describe it. 3 hours earlier, the vet told us that she had high hopes for her recovery and that this was just a "hump" we had to get over. well, it was a different hump than we had expected, that's for sure.


momo, i miss you. you were the greatest dog a person could ask for. just ask anyone who ever met you. everyone wanted to take you home cause you were so awesome. one time at a garage sale some lady asked me if she could buy you. i laughed in her face and told her she would have to kill me first. she laughed, but i was serious.

i miss your stinky breath.
i miss giving you hair cuts (even though we both hated it).
i miss fighting with you to cut your nails.
i miss you pestering me every second of every day (and night) to throw your ball.
i miss telling you "i can't reach it" and watching you get so frustrated cause you knew i could.
i miss watching you play with amelie. you were so good to her, even though you never did care for kids too much. you knew she was special to us.
i miss cleaning your gross ears.
i miss yelling at you to stop licking your butt.
i miss your high pitch bark every time we clapped or vaccuumed.
i miss watching you chase your tail and laughing until it hurt.
i miss torturing you with moonboots and sweaters.
i miss your mohawk.
i miss taking you for walks.
i miss tripping over you.
i miss taking you outside.
i miss the bruises on my shins from your head cause you couldn't see me your last months here.
i miss the yelping.
i miss shoving you out of the way in bed cause i couldn't move my feet under the covers.
i miss tapping my foot on the floor to show you where food had fallen so you could get it.
i miss watching you run your heart out to catch your ball.
i miss forcing you to cuddle with me. you would lay your head on my shoulder for 10 seconds to appease me and then pop up to go find your ball.
i miss watching you box with yeager.
i miss watching you get so frustrated when tucker would pester you. i know you guys are playing together now.
i even miss stepping in poop outside.
and most of all, i just miss having you on the floor next to me. you always had to be in the same room.

you were exceptional. incredibly smart with so much energy. you could learn a new trick in a matter of minutes and remember it forever. you understood every word i said and i swore one day you were going to talk back to me. i like to think i was your best friend, but i know you liked your ball better than me. it's ok.

you were there with me through college, 9 jobs, 7 moves and 3 cities. you comforted me through break-ups and laid with me when i was sick. you were even by my side when i married the man who adopted you as his own (i even made him an adoption certificate to make it official). you went everywhere with me and you were always on your best behavior. we had a good 12 years together, i'd say.

i always knew you leaving would be hard, but i had no idea it would be this hard. i keep waiting for you to come around the corner or scratch on the door to come back in from outside. but, i know you aren't suffering anymore. i know you can see so clearly now. i know you'll never have another ear infection or itchy skin problem. and i know i'll see you again. and i can't wait.

love,
mama



















Monday, August 15, 2011

emotional rollercoaster

Believe it or not, this post isn't about Amelie. It's about our first baby girl, Morgan, or as most of you know her, MoMo. And it's also quite depressing… just a warning, sorry.

As you also might know, she hasn't been doing well for quite some time now. She has had a heart murmur that gets worse every time we take her to the vet. Within the past couple of months, she has been breathing very heavy and fast and her belly got bloated. Her hair is growing in patches and we have to carry her up and down the stairs to take her out now.

Last week I was out of town and got a voicemail from Ant saying that Mo wasn't doing well at all and that she had had an "episode" when she came back in from going outside. She was wobbly and disoriented and couldn't stand or walk. We decided that we would just keep an eye on her and take her to the vet when I got back if she was still struggling. When I got home on Saturday, she seemed ok. Not good, just ok. Until today. She was pooping this gooey pumpkin grossness, wasn't eating well, seemed very uncomfortable and breathing very heavy. I took her outside when Ant went to class and she made a huge mess on herself so I decided to give her a bath (crying the entire time). Usually when I clip her nails she fights me, but not today. She just sat there. Usually she shakes like crazy and rolls all over the place like a crazy dog when she is wet, but not today. She laid down on the floor and didn't move for about 2 hours. Ant got home from class, took one look at her and said, let's take her now.

I was a mess. I just knew this was it. I just kept praying that she wouldn't be suffering. I wasn't ready, but I hate seeing her like this. Then again, are we ever ready to say goodbye to our first baby?

We got to the vet and they rushed us back, seeing how in distress she was. I cried some more. They came back with a list of tests and procedures they wanted to to, which added up to $360 that we just don't have right now. The vet tech told us about a credit program that we could apply for that we wouldn't have to pay interest on for at least a year. So we made the decision to do that and go for it. (The grand total ended up being $411… ouch.)

The prognosis was that she has heart failure in her right side and possibly some in her left. This is causing her organs to not quite function properly, leading to fluid build-up, which leads to shortness of breath and pressure on the lungs. The doctor compared it to being really pregnant and having so much pressure on your lungs that you just can't get a deep enough breath. They had oxygen on her and they drained a lot of fluid out of her belly. They started her on a med called Lasiks (sp?), which is a diuretic, to make her pee more fluid out. We also got 2 other meds for her heart that she will have to be on for the remainder of her life.

I was incredibly thankful for this "good" outcome. I actually didn't even think we would be coming home with her, so when I say good, I mean, still here. Since we've been home, she hasn't been much better. We are supposed to monitor her breathing and call the doc in the morning to let her know how she's doing. Tonight when I took her out, I had to wipe her butt (sorry, I know it's super gross) and I was wiping blood. I was shocked to see it and I have no idea what's causing it, but I will definitely be asking the doc about that in the morning. She still seems uncomfortable and is still breathing really fast and hard.  She won't even eat vanilla yogurt with her meds in it like she always used to. She just turns her nose up to it.

Again, I just keep praying for God to tell us when enough is enough. It's so hard to see her like this. Sorry this is such a long and sad post. Please pray for us as we make these tough decisions and try to find a way to make these new payments. Please pray that MoMo would go in peace and not suffer at all.



Good night.
k-




Sunday, July 31, 2011

yep, it's that time

amelie has started to show interest in the big potty and she's been "announcing" when she goes poo poo, so we did it… we got a {little} big girl potty!


she doesn't know this yet, but it sings and congratulates her when she actually goes in the potty! (not sure how i'm going to demonstrate that one yet)

we obviously have a lot to work on. stay tuned…

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

a wonderful first

i was sitting on the couch tonight playing with amelie and i randomly blurted out, "amelie, i love you…"


much to my surprise she replied without hesitation, "i love you, too!"


oh. 


my.


goodness.


i almost cried it was so sweet. she is so dang lovable.


it only took 20 months, 27 days, 18 hours and 11 minutes to hear it :)









Wednesday, July 20, 2011

in awe



she never ceases to amaze me.

she's a sleeper.
she slept until 10:30 this morning (and yesterday and the day before) and then got fussy around noon and told me she wanted to go "nie nie". i complied (but assumed it wouldn't go over well) and put her in bed. she slept until 4:30. all day. while i got some much needed work done.

she's brilliant.
when ant got her up from her nap she pointed to the letter E on her shirt and said "Eeee!". no idea where that came from.

she's talented.
she was watching Baby Miracle, The Story of Jonah and the Whale today and started singing along with one of the Bible songs. no idea she knew it.

she's content.
we went to Target tonight and a mother of a little girl the same age commented on how well behaved she was (we had run into each other a few times in the store). not the first time that's happened and I DON'T take it for granted.

she's faithful.
every night when we are having our family hug before bed, she now bows her head and says, "Pay"… waits patiently (with her eyes wide open)… and then says, "AH-MEN!" with much excitement.

it may sound to you like i'm trying to brag, but believe me, i'm not (we have many moments that aren't so sweet). i'm simply trying to document how amazing amelie is so i can look back on these times and cry smile.  :)

every day is new and every day is blessed. thank you, Jesus, for such an amazing opportunity to raise this sweet, smart, kind, funny, lovable little girl.

Thursday, July 14, 2011

story time

Once upon a time…


to be continued, i'm sure…

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Pop & Amie

I just caught a great moment of Amelie playin' with my dad, aka Pop.

It was MUCH better in person, but you get the jist.

I LOVE it!

Just click HERE to see it!

Monday, May 30, 2011

Sure!

Amelie's new saying…



This is her and Reagan playing in a hotel room in Orlando a few weeks ago. She adores her "Rea Rea" and thinks she's hilarious. I just love it when she responds to us with a loud and clear "SURE!" She gets that from her daddy cause I don't think I use that word too much.

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Productivity

I am going to go to sleep tonight feeling very accomplished!

Amelie recently decided to turn almost every vegetable down. She used to gobble up anything we gave her, but now it's a constant battle to get her to eat most veggies. I recently purchased the cookbook Deceptively Delicious. I've heard about it for a while, but never felt I really needed it. I heard a few friends talking about it and liking some of the recipes so I decided to go ahead and give it a try. Yesterday I went to the store and bought lots of produce. I spent most of last night and all day today cleaning, prepping, steaming, baking, pureeing (is that even a word?), bagging, labeling and freezing everything I bought. PHEW! Here is the outcome:




So, now we have stocked the freezer with butternut squash, yellow squash, spinach, cauliflower, sweet potato, carrot and beet purees. Now I'm ready to try some of these recipes out so our baby girl can eat some healthy food!

I tried my first recipe today as well and it was actually a hit! I made the rice balls recipe from the book. It consisted of chicken (I used leftover rotisserie from the other night), cheddar cheese, sr cream & sw pot puree. You mix all that together in a food processor, stir in brown rice, roll into balls, then roll in egg and spinach puree mixture, roll in panko (I like it better than breadcrumbs) and cook in a little olive oil in a skillet. They were VERY yummy! Amelie ate 2 or 3 and Ant, his friend Joe and I ate quite a bit, too. AND I had a lot of the mixture leftover that I froze so we can make more another day… yippee!! 

I just hope I can keep this up so we can all get more veggies in our diet :)


My DISCLAIMER: Just because I am adding veggies to her food doesn't mean I'm going to stop offering her veggies on her plate along with these recipes. I think it's really important for her to know that she needs to eat veggies, but this is just my way of getting MORE nutrition in her meals.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

18 month talkin' fool

Amelie turned 18 months old yesterday… crazy how time flies. I know I say that all the time, but it's true. And you really don't understand it until you have kids. It goes by SO fast. I'm trying to soak in every second, but it's difficult to stop and bask in every second. This blog is a way we will be able to look back years later and enjoy the big moments and some small ones, too. Even though I haven't been that great at blogging consistently like I wanted to, at least I have the major events documented. 

Amelie is a HAM! She has the funniest personality. We are constantly laughing at the things she does and says. She's so sweet and cuddly and smiley and giggly and wiggly and dancey and many, many more things. She LOVES to eat (you can tell by the size of her belly!), play in the water, take baths, play with clothes (random, but true), play with her cousins, climb all over mama and daddy, DANCE!, read books, etc… She is a TALKING FOOL. She will talk your ear off. No clue what she's saying most of the time, but her vocab is starting to flourish BIG time! She says so many words, ah-like so:



And there are many more things that video didn't cover. Personally, I think she's a genius to be talking at such a young age, but I'm her mama, so I'm kinda biased.





Friday, February 11, 2011

WOOK!

Amelie and I went to Michael's the other night. We were walking through all the isles and all of the sudden I heard her saying something new and it took me a minute to figure out what it was that she was trying to say. She would point and then I hear, "HUUUAWWWHHHH (big gasp)… WOOK!" (LOOK!) She was so excited to see so many cool things (especially artificial flowers and ribbon) that she just had to make sure that I was seeing everything. She said it over and over and I got the biggest kick out of it.

It's so awesome to get to see things through her fresh, innocent eyes. It reminds me not to take things for granted and to appreciate the small things in life (even if they are artificial flowers).

She is my joy and I thank God for letting me be her mom every day :)

Aren't you loving the nakey hiney, one knappy santa slipper on, one off look? I am!

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

air jordans and a bike ride

We took a trip to Atlanta for our 1st anniversary when I was 7 months pregnant. We have some good friends up there who have a hook-up at a great consignment. Ant found a pair of gray and lime green high top air jordans and it was love at first sight. We had no idea if we were having a boy or a girl at that point, but the exact words that came out of my mouth were, "you better bet if we have a girl, she's wearing those!" So we got em (at a REALLY great price, along with all kinds of goodies… thank you Lynda and Kevin!) They are size 5. Amie is just now fitting into them and they are stinkin' cute!


Ok, so it's not the greatest picture of Amelie, but you have to admit, the shoes are pretty awesome… especially with her sweet skinny jeans.

On a totally unrelated note, we FINALLY got to take my new bike for a spin! Ant got it for me for Christmas and mom and dad got a nifty little seat for Amelie to ride with me. She absolutely loves it! I am quite fond of this seat because she is in front of me and if I happen to fall, I feel much more comfortable knowing that I can try to protect her with her being in front instead of behind me.



Again, not the greatest picture of Amie, but she was distracted by the creepy man on the street trying to strike up conversation.

With spring coming up, I know we are going to be doing LOTS of bike riding!!



Sunday, January 30, 2011

15 months

Amelie is 15 months old today. Wow! She's getting so big and soaking EVERYTHING in. We are amazed how much she is learning every day. She is an awesome communicator… she tells us when she's hungry (which is pretty much all the time), when she wants to go night-night, when she wants milk, etc. She LOVES to dance!! This is her gettin' down to her favorite video:

 

I'm pretty sure she got her dance moves from her:



Here are some of her recent milestones: (i'm recording all this mostly for my memory, so bare with me)


• walking and running
• "jumping"
• talking A LOT
• signing and communicating really well
• eating A LOT (pretty sure she's a bored eater)
• sleeping for 11-12 hours a night and still taking 2 naps during the day
• 2 teeth on top, 4 on the bottom and 1 starting to poke through toward the back (not sure if it's a molar)
• "reading" lots of books (she constantly wants to read!)


spoken words:
her favorite: HI!
mama
dada
go
no
momo
up
dog ("daw")
more ("moe")
night-night ("nie-nie")
cow
moo
duck ("duh")
quack-quack ("kah-kah")
nose ("nooooh")
mouth ("mow")
roar ("RARW!")
baby
water ("wahwah")
me
uh-oh
good girl ("goo gurrrr")

signs:
more
please
cat
dog
bath
eat/hungry
milk
apple
baby
all done
flower
ouch

associations:
eyes
hair
nose
mouth
ears
belly
lion
cat
dog
hippo
bath
night night
dance
jump
milk
put your boppy (paci) in your bed
shoes
feet/foot
hands
hat
water
last bite
… there's really too many of these to keep going!



Saturday, January 22, 2011

greatest show on earth!

Our amazing friends, Todd & Timi, were so generous and got us a sweet deal on some circus tickets. We were really excited… a lot for ourselves, but mostly for Amelie! We went with our friends, Ginny and Bob and their 3 kiddos and had GREAT seats. Turns out, Amie could care less about the circus.

The first 10 minutes of the show she would look at the all the action and then look back at me with the most worried look on her face, like, "help me, mama!," but after she realized we were no, in fact, in harms way, she seemed to kind of enjoy the show a little. Every now and then she would look at a lion or an elephant and point and say something, but the rest of the time she spent trying to talk to Rush (one of our friend's kids) and just going back and forth between our laps… she really got a kick out of that. At intermission, Ant went to get some cotton candy. I was so excited cause I just KNEW she was gonna love it. Ha! She was actually quite terrified of the cotton candy. We would hold it up to her mouth and she would brush it away and turn her head in fear. Then she just got a kick out of feeding it to us… so we ate a lot of cotton candy. I was actually pretty ok with that :)

ready to go to the circus!

not really sure what to think…

still not sure, but trying to enjoy it!

pretty :)

ginny + bob + hawk + stella + rush = one awesome family!

like i said… terrified.